Tearing away pages

Hi all!

Hope your New Year was amazing. Mine went not too bad. I was curled up in my bed netflixing (Is that even a verb? :-\ ). 

Today, I was busy with my studies since I have exams next month. I am currently pursuing my Masters in Germany. The thing is I had already planned that I will never blog again,I literally forgot about this blog; but thanks to my boyfriend, he brought it up in our conversation some days back. Actually he was feeling bored and was stalking my old, hopelessly romantic, stupid version in this blog. ( He is a crazy ass 😀 and I still love him) . Have you heard of this saying,” Usually 1 is more romantic than the other in a couple.”? Yeah! He is the one. So, he is kind of surprised when he sees my ‘That’ version, in blog, not real life. 😉

I know you will start reading across my blog to find which posts I am talking about. STOP RIGHT THERE! Those posts are gone. I felt ,why should my crappy past be part of something which is really beautiful, which is going 4 years strong and still counting. He knows my past because he has been my friend. Actually he still is. My best friend, my boyfriend, annoying yet cute..I can’t describe him. That is what Love is, right? You cannot put it in words. 

My past has taught me a lot, changed me the most and I think that is my weird love story, which brought us even more together. It is not a fairytale story, but for me it is.  So if you are looking for the perfect person in the perfect situation, maybe you are missing out someone who is right there, always around you, whom you friendzoned. 😛 (Just kidding!). Don’t always expect movies. Create your own. 😉

So here I am, tearing away the old pages from my book. They were my draft. The final version is ready now. 😉

PS: I hope you are reading this. Happy Anniversary. Sorry! I cannot be more mushier than this. Don’t expect much. 😛 



Distant Love-My Real Love story

Hi everyone!
It has been a long time since I wrote something after my last article. Well! in that article itself, I promised myself to write even more. Seems like I am already breaking my New year resolution. 😛

Firstly! This post is personal, so those who don’t want to hear my ramblings can skip this post entirely. No hard feelings. 🙂 Those who can bear it, go ahead. 😀

I am actually very happy to share with you all that for the very first time, something beautiful has happened in my life. I had my first anniversary on Jan 13th of this year and I am delighted to have completed an amazing year with that special person. ❤
If you have read my earlier posts, you may have got the inkling that somehow Love never hit the right chord in my life. I had gone through ups and downs, bad romances(Lady Gaga,yess!first time I have mentioned her song in my post. 😛 ) and horrible breakups; and actually vowed to stay away from this ‘stuff’. But you know right, anything forbidden is more enticing. 😉 I am a flawed human but I am proud of my ‘mistake’ this time.

 My love story is weird actually. There is no fairytale charm in it, if that’s what you are expecting. We had been normal friends since the start of the college. I liked him as a genuine friend, nothing else ever. Same goes for him. His friend circle is different from mine. We just talked in the class or when we had some work or when we just wanted to hangout if our separate friend circle was unavailable. We didn’t text each other that much.
Things started changing when we were in our final year. My heart was still recovering from the worst possible breakup ever and my friends were desperate to make me gain weight. Now you must be possibly thinking what happened? I lost weight drastically and had lost my appetite as well due to that heartbreaking stuff. Even though my heart wanted to eat food, my body rejected it.Grr!

My friends knew that this guy can make you laugh or make you cheerful for no reason. So we used to hangout with him and his friends.His friends ,as I have seen,are the most energetic and bubbly people ever.They talk,laugh and do just about anything.I have never seen them sitting quietly.So it’s impossible to brood in their midst,which was a good thing for me at that time.I found my appetite and weight because of him actually.He distracted my mind so much that it was helping my body and my heart. This is how we started getting closer to each other. He cared for me unconsciously and I liked his chirpy attitude. Our conversations found their way into our cellphones. We talked normally but we were sharing details that we never did before. Then last January, I took the first step. My friends have been adamant to give him a chance and they told me, he was always the one for me and that I didn’t know that. I laughed at their thoughts at first but thought about this. Maybe this can work. I asked him out for a coffee and it was a huge thing for me because anything wrong can make the friendship go away too.

We went out and discussed more intimately about each other’s lives, past lives and everything. Our first date was getting to know each other more. We even talked about how to carry on with this thing because obviously, we didn’t have feelings at that time. We took this very slow. We always kept this thing in our mind that friendship comes first. Daily conversations, spending time with each other and texting made us come closer. We realized we were developing feelings. I was apprehensive of this because I didn’t want to get hurt again. He promised me he won’t do that. Even though we weren’t a couple, but his promise made me strong enough to trust him fully so I didn’t stop my heart from falling for him. It took almost two months to finally realize what we want and so we decided to commit. That was the best decision I ever made.

Till date, we talk like friends, fight like lovers and makeup like small children getting a candy. 😛 Actually we never have those big fights. It fizzles out easily. 😛 We had made a pact , no matter what, we will tell everything to each other. So I cannot storm out of the room when we are fighting even if I wanted to. The biggest thing which makes us stay together is the understanding. We come from different cultures and our first priority has always been to talk to & about each other. We talk about anything, random and serious…It’s important you know.

Since August, we have been in a long distance relationship. So it’s difficult to talk 24 by 7.But we had decided no matter what, we will talk daily at least for 5 minutes. Skype has been our savior.He did come one time to visit me, and we had lunch and talked, laughed.But he also broke the news to me that for a month he will be in China. So from different cities, we graduated into different countries long distance relationship. 😀

Yes! we craved for each other’s company and we still do now. It had been tough when we desired physical companionship, only to feel dejected at staying so apart. We knew that this long distance love was agreed by both of us. It wasn’t easy. We distracted our mind by getting ourselves engrossed in our work, friends so that we don’t brood on this. This actually helped us.

The other problem we faced was misunderstanding. Since we thrived only through Skype and phone, sometimes we misunderstood each other. We had small tiffs but resolved it within an hour or so.

To be honest,we have different interests. We have different personalities too. But our love has been the binding factor. Maybe it’s true. Opposites attract. He is more romantic than me and the best thing about him, he can surprise me anytime. Though I don’t usually believe in fairy tales, but he and his acts make me believe in them nowadays. Gosh! I Love him so much.(Blushing 🙂 )

We had our share of bad times, but the good times rolled more. 😉 When you are in a long distance relationship, it is important to have regular communication. Also keep this in mind that both of you will have different lives, so fix a time when you both are free to talk. Never hide even the smallest of the things. And keep sending each other memorabilia or small gifts to show your love. Because you need to compensate the absence of the other using the lovely gifts they have sent.

I have found my love and pray for it to last an eternity. And I pray for you to not lose hope. 🙂

Take care,bye

No need to hold on

all the things i said,

all the things you meant,

every belief we had,

was meant to be a degrade;

you want to leave forever,

The door’s wide open,

Shed those last tears,

No more of you here;

All those promises,fake,

your love was just for sake,

learnt my lesson ,

Because you did a treason;

No need to hold on

to you

to your breath

to your smile

to your love

playing is your forte,

you are a great sport,

mind you ,am not weak,

died the girl who was meek;

life isn’t finished yet,

new dreams are set,

last of your remains,

washed away with the rains;

life is more cheery,

i have grown up more,

realized my mistakes,

and moving on forward;

No need to hold on

to you

to your touch

to your care

to your love

I am able to fly higher

you are no more my desire

there’s more to life,

than just petty love;

no need to hold on

to you


Complicated love

just the sight is enough to make our heart beat faster.We talk daily,laugh,roam,do possibly all kinds of things as friends and suddenly without knowing,we fall into the addictive attractive feeling of love.

Then comes,the late night talks,whispering sweet nothings,cuddling,hugging,loving each other with open arms and this continues for some months.We girls want this romance never ending.Add to this fuel are the Hollywood romantic flicks.Everything appears so perfect.

But suddenly you start feeling something amiss.Talks become less,busy schedules take up the space,more people come between you and your partner and then before you can even stop it,arguments and fights start cropping up. 😦 You say things you don’t mean to,and get hurt by the things which you never wanted to hear.Out of desperation & frustration,some just leave their partner and part ways,others come up with solutions & some just stop talking altogether and wait for things to even out.

Every love has a sweet phase which is the initial phase,wherein everything is lovey dovey and you find everything perfect.Then comes the boring phase where you think whats happening to you.You start questioning yourself,why did you fall in love?You doubt your partner.You just feel suffocated as to what happened to the early phase.You crave for happiness,you crave for that excitement & surprises.Some people break out of such relationships.Others just work out.And then there are those,who are stuck and clueless about what to do?

People forget that to love is easy,but to keep loving is the most difficult task.What brought you and your partner close,is the reason you are together.But if that thing disappears,boredom sets in.Relationships need sparks to keep the embers burning.It needs Effort.Lack of this is the reason why love becomes boring and people commit infidelity.

So prioritize your lover.Spend as much time as possible ,through texts,Skype,calls or meet them.Keep talking & sharing.Lack of communication is the main reason why couples break apart.And keep the romance alive..Instead of flirting with others to combat your frustration,flirt with your lover.Indulge in the things which earlier brought you together 🙂

Happy loving to all of you :-*


I want to feel this closeness

I want to see our holiness

That we share, we care for each other

Amorous are we, truly & exquisitelyimagesCA9R12VS

World is ours, we rule, we live in it

I want to take you places,you’ve never been

My love, I love thee

All I want to is surrender

My heart, my soul, my body to your every core.

When we first met

You talked and we laughed

So many dreams we have woven

Treaded miles barefoot on the thornsimagesCATC3SZC

You laid a path of rose petals for me

If I trip, you’re there to hold me

All I want to is surrender

My heart, my soul, my body to your every core.

Rain drops


We were meant to be together,

This was supposed to happen,

You, me and us, our life.

Every touch of yours is endearing;

Every kiss has a meaning;

A smile from you lights up my day;

Nothing can go wrong on our way.

I have everything I need,

You by my side, in this picture perfect scene.

Walking hand in hand, through ups and down;

“Sweetheart, hear our favorite sound?”

How the rain caressed the earth,

That woody smell invigorated us.

We took shelter beneath a tree;

Thinking about all the possibilities, you and me,

We just talked, standing there,

But one bolt of lightning silenced us,

I gazed up at you,  shy to see the love you have for me,

Coming closer, you held me tightly;

I  breathed in your essence.

You whispered sweet nothings, and I shied away,

You took my chin, pulled me even closer;

Our lips parted, and we dived into an eternal bliss,

That taste, that feel, I want to cherish every moment.

That rhythmic assault on my lips burned my body,

Tugging your hair, you caressing my back,

Sound of the thunder mattered no more;

Your wet skin grazing my neck, tingled me,

I knew what would happen next.

I looked at you, passion still there,

“Let’s go home!”, I said;

The rain drops showered their blessings.

We walked in silence, holding each other,

Each drop drew an enticing line on our body as it fell,

The desirous heat between us growing,

But nothing’s compared to God’s beauty ,

which deepens our love, nurtures our love,

Specially those  gifted rain drops I’ll cherish forever.


Forbidden Fruit

Feeling so intense, never felt this way,

Our eyes meet, heartbeat racing,

You hold me as close ,as tight;

I breathe in your fragrance,

I look up at you, is this all true?

Embracing the warmth, coursing through my body,

You change unreal to real;

How can I possibly bear all?

This amorous relation, so pure,

My heart aches just to see it untitled,

Togetherness is not written on the cards;

We try harder but it won’t last,

I see you slipping away into your world,

Knowing it won’t work;

My love is so strong,

It takes me to where I belong;

Why does it have to be you?

When I know, its forbidden fruit I am biting into