Big change


I have been staying alone for almost 6 months now and it is going to be 2 years in total!

Now, I know what you are thinking. In India, it is not common for a girl to leave the house,until unless she has her college or job in another city. This is perfectly normal for us. (Imagine saving up on rents and food :-D) My parents were really understanding and supportive when I told them that I wish to do Masters outside India. ย I was looking forward to my life staying alone, not that my parents earlier restricted my actions. ๐Ÿ˜›

I have heard from lot of people,that initially its difficult,when you have to do all your work on your own. But for me,this change was not a blow. I was surprised at myself,that I accepted this change and did not fuss about it when I landed in Germany.ย 

The people here are more direct, which I like. You don’t have to pretend and say sweet words. They like being direct and love if the opposite person is honest. Before coming here, I had learnt about the culture from my German teachers,so for me, there was nothing shocking. They are perfectly okay with various hues of skin and curves. Most of them understand English, but not the older generation. If you try speaking in German, they love it,even though you are saying everything scrambled. ๐Ÿ˜› One thing I agree upon, Beer is definitely their cup of tea.ย 

But apart from the Germans, I have a lot of international students in my class. Their cultures, their language and their personality are poles apart than mine. Initially, for me it was bit difficult how to act around them. You never know, what can get offensive for them,even though I find it funny. What worked for me in the end was observing everyone a lot and speaking only on relevant topics. I usually keep to myself. I am an ambivert so for me talking a lot was reserved only with people I was comfortable with,rest of the time, I prefer Netflixing or reading. I beleive,” Don’t try to fit in! It will happen on its own pace.”

I look forward to lot of such big changes in my life. I want to push my limits of adaptability. Wish me luck ๐Ÿ˜‰




Tearing away pages

Hi all!

Hope your New Year was amazing. Mine went not too bad. I was curled up in my bed netflixing (Is that even a verb? :-\ ).ย 

Today, I was busy with my studies since I have exams next month. I am currently pursuing my Masters in Germany. The thing is I had already planned that I will never blog again,I literally forgot about this blog; but thanks to my boyfriend, he brought it up in our conversation some days back. Actually he was feeling bored and was stalking my old, hopelessly romantic, stupid version in this blog. ( He is a crazy ass ๐Ÿ˜€ and I still love him) . Have you heard of this saying,” Usually 1 is more romantic than the other in a couple.”? Yeah! He is the one. So, he is kind of surprised when he sees my ‘That’ version, in blog, not real life. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I know you will start reading across my blog to find which posts I am talking about. STOP RIGHT THERE! Those posts are gone. I felt ,why should my crappy past be part of something which is really beautiful, which is going 4 years strong and still counting. He knows my past because he has been my friend. Actually he still is. My best friend, my boyfriend, annoying yet cute..I can’t describe him. That is what Love is, right? You cannot put it in words.ย 

My past has taught me a lot, changed me the most and I think that is my weird love story, which brought us even more together. It is not a fairytale story, but for me it is.ย  So if you are looking for the perfect person in the perfect situation, maybe you are missing out someone who is right there, always around you, whom you friendzoned. ๐Ÿ˜› (Just kidding!). Don’t always expect movies. Create your own. ๐Ÿ˜‰

So here I am, tearing away the old pages from my book. They were my draft. The final version is ready now. ๐Ÿ˜‰

PS: I hope you are reading this. Happy Anniversary. Sorry! I cannot be more mushier than this. Don’t expect much. ๐Ÿ˜›ย 


Distant Love-My Real Love story

Hi everyone!
It has been a long time since I wrote something after my last article. Well! in that article itself, I promised myself to write even more. Seems like I am already breaking my New year resolution. ๐Ÿ˜›

Firstly! This post is personal, so those who don’t want to hear my ramblings can skip this post entirely. No hard feelings. ๐Ÿ™‚ Those who can bear it, go ahead. ๐Ÿ˜€

I am actually very happy to share with you all that for the very first time, something beautiful has happened in my life. I had my first anniversary on Jan 13th of this year and I am delighted to have completed an amazing year with that special person. โค
If you have read my earlier posts, you may have got the inkling that somehow Love never hit the right chord in my life. I had gone through ups and downs, bad romances(Lady Gaga,yess!first time I have mentioned her song in my post. ๐Ÿ˜› ) and horrible breakups; and actually vowed to stay away from this ‘stuff’. But you know right, anything forbidden is more enticing. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I am a flawed human but I am proud of my ‘mistake’ this time.

ย My love story is weird actually. There is no fairytale charm in it, if that’s what you are expecting. We had been normal friends since the start of the college. I liked him as a genuine friend, nothing else ever. Same goes for him. His friend circle is different from mine. We just talked in the class or when we had some work or when we just wanted to hangout if our separate friend circle was unavailable. We didn’t text each other that much.
Things started changing when we were in our final year. My heart was still recovering from the worst possible breakup ever and my friends were desperate to make me gain weight. Now you must be possibly thinking what happened? I lost weight drastically and had lost my appetite as well due to that heartbreaking stuff. Even though my heart wanted to eat food, my body rejected it.Grr!

My friends knew that this guy can make you laugh or make you cheerful for no reason. So we used to hangout with him and his friends.His friends ,as I have seen,are the most energetic and bubbly people ever.They talk,laugh and do just about anything.I have never seen them sitting quietly.So it’s impossible to brood in their midst,which was a good thing for me at that time.I found my appetite and weight because of him actually.He distracted my mind so much that it was helping my body and my heart. This is how we started getting closer to each other. He cared for me unconsciously and I liked his chirpy attitude. Our conversations found their way into our cellphones. We talked normally but we were sharing details that we never did before. Then last January, I took the first step. My friends have been adamant to give him a chance and they told me, he was always the one for me and that Iย didn’t know that. I laughed at their thoughts at first but thought about this. Maybe this can work.ย I asked him out for a coffee and it was a huge thing for me because anything wrong can make the friendship go away too.

We went out and discussed more intimately about each other’s lives, past lives and everything. Our first date was getting to know each other more. We even talked about how to carry on with this thing because obviously, we didn’t have feelings at that time. We took this very slow. We always kept this thing in our mind that friendship comes first. Daily conversations, spending time with each other and texting made us come closer. We realized we were developing feelings. I was apprehensive of this because I didn’t want to get hurt again. He promised me he won’t do that. Even though we weren’t a couple, but his promise made me strong enough to trust him fully so I didn’t stop my heart from falling for him. It took almost two months to finally realize what we want and so we decided to commit. That was the best decision I ever made.

Till date, we talk like friends, fight like lovers and makeup like small children getting a candy. ๐Ÿ˜› Actually we never have those big fights. It fizzles out easily. ๐Ÿ˜› We had made a pact , no matter what, we will tell everything to each other. So I cannot storm out of the room when we are fighting even if I wanted to. The biggest thing which makes us stay together is the understanding. We come from different cultures and our first priority has always been to talkย to & about each other. We talk about anything, random and serious…It’s important you know.

Since August, we have been in a long distance relationship. So it’s difficult to talk 24 by 7.But we had decided no matter what, we will talk daily at least for 5 minutes. Skype has been our savior.He did come one time to visit me, and we had lunch and talked, laughed.But he also broke the news to me that for a month he will be in China. So from different cities, weย graduated intoย different countries long distance relationship. ๐Ÿ˜€

Yes! we craved for each other’s company and we still do now. It had been tough when we desired physical companionship, only to feel dejected at staying so apart. We knew that this long distance love was agreed by both of us. It wasn’t easy. We distracted our mind by getting ourselves engrossed in our work, friends so that we don’t brood on this. This actually helped us.

The other problem we facedย was misunderstanding. Since we thrived only through Skype and phone, sometimes we misunderstood each other. We had small tiffs but resolved it within an hour or so.

To be honest,we have different interests. We have different personalities too. But our love has been the binding factor. Maybe it’s true. Opposites attract. He is more romantic than me and the best thing about him, he can surprise me anytime. Though I don’t usually believe in fairy tales, but he and his acts make me believe in them nowadays. Gosh! I Love him so much.(Blushing ๐Ÿ™‚ย )

We had our share of bad times, but the good times rolled more. ๐Ÿ˜‰ When you are in a long distance relationship, it is important to have regular communication. Also keep this in mind that both of you will have different lives, so fix a time when you both are free to talk. Never hide even the smallest of the things. And keep sending each other memorabilia or small gifts to show your love. Because you need to compensate the absence of the other using the lovely gifts they have sent.

I have found my love and pray for it to last an eternity. And I pray for you to not lose hope. ๐Ÿ™‚

Take care,bye

New year…Indeed

Hello everyone! ๐Ÿ˜€

Firstly,a very happy new year to all of you.It’s been a while I wrote something,and I did forget to write,but my mind,mysteriously ticked me today and said, “Soumi! start again.You have a life here too.”

So here I am,trying to think what to write about.But before that,I am extremely sorry that I stayed away from my blog because I was busy studying and doing my job. Blogging needs effort and time and I completely forgot this.

Shame on you Soumi!How could you do this?

Everyone,in fact you also,I am sure,would have listed out New year resolutions.(Those who didn’t,No problem!You are not alone.My friends would be happy enough to join you ย ๐Ÿ˜› ) I am not the type of person who usually believes in such stuffs,but this year, have decided to make a resolution for my dear blog. Instead of the usual resolutions which I have heard so many times-I won’t drink,smoke,blah & blah,I want to hear ,”I would focus on my family,friends,hobbies etc.”

New year isn’t always about leaving things,it’s also about changing yourself or imbibing things.So,I vow to write often and be faithful to my blog,which has sustained my ever-changing emotions and an array of thoughts. Thank you blog! ย ๐Ÿ™‚ I realised blogging not only gives vent to your brainwaves but you get to learn a lot too from other blogs.ย 

So I bid adieu to my old year and welcome 2015.Till the next post,Bye ,sayonara . :-*

Make others ‘Happy’ New year

Every 31st Dec & 1st Jan,my Facebook and other social networking accounts get bombarded with ‘Happy New Year’ wishes.As if that’s not enough,my phone keeps buzzing every 5 minutes.I know new year makes people excited & happy,but to be truthful, whatever we hope to make our year peaceful and positive,we do end up with something bad and saddening news always.

Instead of making new year resolution for yourself,let’s pledge to make new year resolution for others,because we all know,its easy to boss someone around than sticking to a regime yourself.How about,passing a smile to random people on the street?I know it sounds crazy,but think,it will force the other person to smile too.They would think its weird,but in the end,they will smile back.

We can say ‘thank you’ to a stranger or a friend from whom we asked for a help.Saying that,is the biggest act of gratitude.It fills you with warmth,and happiness.And the person who receives that,he feels acknowledged & you make his/her day.I have got some friends who rush away to their work without saying thank you,and I say that on behalf of them.Well! They do hear from me later on. ๐Ÿ˜›

I am sure,you can find other simple resolutions.Just remember,make others happy,and you will get happy in return.



No need to hold on

all the things i said,

all the things you meant,

every belief we had,

was meant to be a degrade;

you want to leave forever,

The door’s wide open,

Shed those last tears,

No more of you here;

All those promises,fake,

your love was just for sake,

learnt my lesson ,

Because you did a treason;

No need to hold on

to you

to your breath

to your smile

to your love

playing is your forte,

you are a great sport,

mind you ,am not weak,

died the girl who was meek;

life isn’t finished yet,

new dreams are set,

last of your remains,

washed away with the rains;

life is more cheery,

i have grown up more,

realized my mistakes,

and moving on forward;

No need to hold on

to you

to your touch

to your care

to your love

I am able to fly higher

you are no more my desire

there’s more to life,

than just petty love;

no need to hold on

to you


Everything about winter

Waking up today morning,I realized I am feeling cold.I figured maybe the windows are open but they weren’t. I got off the bed & oh my,the floor was so chilled.I was shivering too so I wrapped myself with a shawl.That’s when I realized that winter has set in.
It seemed like only yesterday I was drinking shakes in CP with my close friends,enjoying the summer.I forgot completely that November is the time when winter starts knocking at your door.So many things had happened throughout this summer and monsoon,that the onset of winter is surprising me for the first time.
Winter is not just about hot beverages,bonfires,heaters and warm clothing,for me winter signifies festivities,sugar treats and romance.We have a winter period of 4 months approx. with December and January being the harshest.
When it comes to festivals,November marks the beginning of it.We have Diwali & Bhai dooj for starters.These two itself last for about 2 weeks.People can’t get enough of it.
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ย December ushers in Christmas spirit & you will see malls and other places all lined up with red and green decorations.Its a treat to the eyes which get bored with the usual monotone colors of winters.I personally like the sound of the bells ringing in a distant church.
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This is a month-long affair.January is all about freshness and new year.We keep on partying till we get tired.New year resolutions are in vogue but hardly anyone keeps up with it anymore. ๐Ÿ˜› Lastly February brings in Basant panchami and Saraswati puja. You will see mostly women and children wearing hues of yellow,green and orange.Basically its celebrated to welcome the spring season which starts from March.
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Though celebrating all these is tough when you have to brave the cold wave & the dense fog.Its too dangerous.But celebrations give you instant energy & you can face anything.
For me winter is also about cupcakes and cookies.They are my favorite & I can gorge on them daily if I have the chance,not caring about weight gain issue. ๐Ÿ˜€ Mostly you will find these more during December and January.Cupcakes give you that warm sugary feeling which makes winter more bearable.The cute ones fill you with happiness.It is impossible to stay in bad mood when you see one and eat it.Cookies are equally amorous and irresistible.
Lastly romance,an inevitable part of life,is sure to combine with this cold season to give that warm feeling,no one can avoid.All the warm clothing is not enough to keep you warm when that special someone is with you,beside you to give company,make you laugh,when they make you forget its winter.I don’t know why,but being hugged by that person gives your body that reaction to release those hormones that give that warm feeling. Cozying up,holding each other & all other romantic stuff,makes winter even more inviting.
downloadFor me winters have been beautiful & I hope you find your reasons to make it beautiful too. ๐Ÿ™‚