bottoms Up!

I was just browsing through some sites,reading random articles on my way,finalizing an idea on something ,I could write about.I was talking to my friend also,side by side,who told me,write something about why vodka and breezer is considered to be a girl’s drink only.

Now,that’s a very good topic.I have heard the same myth,specially where i live.In my group of friends,there are some who would gulp down only so-called ‘men’s drinks’ ,and then there are some,who don’t go by the traditional rule-book.I am not judging anyone ,but before I could say more. (I did my own research.I was extremely bored and thought of doing a survey. 😛 )

Kindly click on the below link to see for yourself.

Survey

My survey composed of 18 males out of 28 total.When it comes to drinking,guys can have any drink but if they are told to choose,they will opt for beer or whiskey.Interesting fact is if women are told to choose or if a guy is asked to choose for a girl,majority of the people went for strong drinks,which clearly shows it’s a myth that women only select colored or flavored drinks in those curvy glasses.They have equal penchant for those ‘hard’ drinks.To be honest,I did see a pattern that men have a tendency to drink beer more,and prefer less vodka,but it’s usually in the psych of that person.My friends ,usually males,do drink vodka on a regular basis along with beer.Its neither less nor more.At par you can say.

So I believe,only some of the population thinks and discriminates on this basis.And there are many times,when the guy gets drunk more easily than the girl,so mind you…think twice before saying-beer is only a men’s drink. 😛

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No need to hold on

all the things i said,

all the things you meant,

every belief we had,

was meant to be a degrade;

you want to leave forever,

The door’s wide open,

Shed those last tears,

No more of you here;

All those promises,fake,

your love was just for sake,

learnt my lesson ,

Because you did a treason;

No need to hold on

to you

to your breath

to your smile

to your love

playing is your forte,

you are a great sport,

mind you ,am not weak,

died the girl who was meek;

life isn’t finished yet,

new dreams are set,

last of your remains,

washed away with the rains;

life is more cheery,

i have grown up more,

realized my mistakes,

and moving on forward;

No need to hold on

to you

to your touch

to your care

to your love

I am able to fly higher

you are no more my desire

there’s more to life,

than just petty love;

no need to hold on

to you

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Sail light

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“The boat will never sail,” I thought

how could it, when its laden heavily

the river’s wide, the fog is heavy

I can’t even see the banks on the other side

The water flowing is tumultuous

And my boat is flimsy like a feather

Life’s so long like the river

The boat is my soul

The bank is my end, but can I ever reach it?

Carrying the burdens with me,I can never sail

Let go of your worries, let go of the people who don’t matter

So many reasons you’ll find to leave them

You came here alone, must go alone

And sail through the storms of life victorious

Lighten your mind, lighten your boat

Only you can maneuver

Through this river alone

so many promises! 4

Aryan didn’t ask her to come to the farewell party. Maybe she knew it already and throughout the day her mood was off. She went to the party with her friend who was into the organizing committee. He realized what was going on, and told her,”Riya!today is his farewell. He won’t give time to you.”

Riya bashed him, “I don’t want his time. I just need an acknowledgement from his side, that its real, us.” With that, she stormed out of the auditorium. Her friend knew from the start, that they were not meant for each other.

Once she reached her class, her phone started ringing. It was from him.
Why the hell is he calling me now? What does he want?
She ignored his call. She attended the classes ,but her mind was somewhere else. It wasn’t working out. Since that day onwards, she reduced her communication with him, to see whether he missed her. He was behaving his usual self. Riya was replying only to what had been asked of her. She didn’t take the effort to talk anymore. But he seemed unfazed. This only deteriorated her condition.

Exams didn’t go smoothly for her and it was during her summer project, that she took the first step. They talked, or fought, it was the same thing. He wasn’t ready to tell anyone about their relationship and casually said he will think about it.Riya knew he was lying. He wanted to meet her at his home and she agreed. She knew he will meet her, only at his home and this was perfect opportunity for her to talk a great deal with him.

She was sitting beside him on the bed and he was lying.
“Aryan ! what’s the matter?”
“Nothing! You tell.”
“I told everything”
“Riya! I will tell my friends, don’t worry”
She looked away from him. He pulled her closer to him and repeated those three words seductively. But this time, it didn’t feel magical for her. Some thing was very wrong. She brushed her fears aside. She looked at him.
He kissed her and they made out, She lost her battle once again. She didn’t know what was awaiting her.

Next week they went out. It wasn’t a date at all, He took her just as a company, and went to do his work. Throughout their relationship, they never went on a date. They went out only when she insisted, and it was like she was hanging out with a friend. This was no different. When they were coming back, her phone started ringing continuously. Her parents were calling her. She couldn’t pick their calls because they would get to know she wasn’t in the college from the background noise. Her conscience told her something was terribly wrong.Riya felt that her parents have come to know about her relationship and everything. Maybe they found her diary.

And it all proved to be true.It was a nightmare at home. Questions started pouring in.She was beaten and scolded at. Everything was becoming unbearable for her. She couldn’t face them. They didn’t want to believe that she was still a virgin. She was humiliated. What was more troubling that she couldn’t face her dad. He was hurt the most. He felt like he lost his little innocent princess who is tainted now. Riya needed Aryan to support him emotionally, but he backed away too. And that was when she broke down completely. The man, who started everything, and for whom she suffered the wrath of her parents, left her alone at her most vulnerable state. She was devastated. She broke all communication from the outside world. She didn’t even talk to her family members. Her parents took her away for a vacation. She was brooding on him. As the vacations ended, she knew she had to face the world again. She started talking to her friends who only cursed that guy.She was merely listening to them but somehow she couldn’t hate him. She busied herself in lot of activities to stop brooding. Such was her condition.
It took her entirely 3 months to get back on her feet. That’s when he started texting her again, she replied .She pleaded him to take her back. They had an on-off relationship for another month or so.But she knew she couldn’t get hurt again so ,forced herself to stray away from him. After sometime, she blocked him and accepted that it’s time to bury the past. She grew up to be more strong now emotionally. And never after that, her mind thought about that guy.

Riya knew that she trusted the wrong person and felt that being ignorant was the greatest mistake she did. When she had the chance, she should have walked out. Wrong people teach the right lessons, And she learnt that she would have a hard time trusting someone or falling in love again. 😦

so many promises! 3

Time was flying away so fast,that she didn’t notice,it was already march.Farewell was coming round the corner and she was getting more depressed.She was a junior to him & knew it well,that he is going to leave the college this year.She has doubts whether their relationship will work or not.It was going to be a long distance one,now that he is graduating.Riya has two more years to go till she graduates.Already her friends have started teasing her about such a complicated relationship,but she dismissed their talks.

She heard from her senior friend that people can go to the farewell party as date.Riya expected him to ask her out.She was lost in her dream world, that’s when her phone buzzed.The text message was from him.

hey babe!wassup? 😉

Nothing much,just studying.You tell.

Oh!i have my hands in shit.This project is taking a lot of my time.I am stuck with the coding & have to submit this next week.Don’t know what to do! 😦

She sighed.It was the same.All the time,he talked about his work.She replied.

Don’t worry,you will come up with something.You always do. 🙂 Maybe you can rest for a while and then get back to your work.

Right!I will sleep for a while,then have dinner & get back to work.

Good!Sleep now sweetie :-* tc

tc,bye :-*

What started as daily continuous chatting was reduced to 15 minute chats nowadays.She was controlling her patience,always in an irritated mood.She kept the phone aside & concentrated into her studies.It was 2 am in the morning,and she was half expecting him to text her,but her phone was not buzzing.She felt like throwing the phone away,her anger was on the rise.He talked to her mostly at nights because in the college,he didn’t get time to talk to her or meet her,also he was afraid,lest anyone sees them together.Their relationship thrived on text messages.Tonight,she felt lonely.He didn’t text her.

Next morning,she saw him in the college.He didn’t seem to notice her or was he ignoring?She tried getting his attention.he walked past her without giving her any sign,that he acknowledged her presence.At night,he texted her.

Hi baby!what r u doin?

just thnkin abt u

oh yea!like? 😛

She knew he was talking in a dirty sense.She texted.

like u r sittin wd me nw & watchin a romantc mov

&?

then u hold my hand & caress it

&?

u pull me towrds u & hug me,kiss my forehead,& say u love me.

What?that’s it? :-O i wanted smthng else

right!U r 1 horny person.u knw wht u nly talk 2 me wen u r high or wanna tok dirty.rest of d tyms u hv ur ‘work’ or sm excuse.i m tired of ths shit.wht do u wnt frm me?tell me frnkly,is it just the non-conventional stuff u r lookin fr? :-O

y r u tokin lyk ths?u knw very well,i luv u

oh yea!its fake,jus sayin these 3 wrds,doesn’t solve nythng.i hv noticed ths,tht u reply fast wen u tok dirty or wnt to hv sex chat ,othr tyms il probly sleep while txtin u.isn  tht obvious,u wanna tok to me becoz u hv ur own intrsts to count fr.m tired.i wnt smbdy who will b thr wen m lonely,feelin unwell or sad.m alws thr fr u wen u need me.is tht too much 2 ask fr?

Riya was pissed off with him tonight & she demanded an apology.

riya!u r misundrstndin me.its nt lyk tht.

then wht is it lyk?huh?

ah!i cnt xpln,k fyn,i wont tok lyk tht,nw plz b happy.

She thought for a moment.In the past,he had made promises but never kept it.If he committed a mistake,just said a ‘sorry’ and then committed that mistake again.

u took me fr grntd,& u wil repeat ths agn,i knw it.i feel lyk brkin up wd u 😦 wen ws d last tym,u took me out?wen ws d last tym,u toked to me actually properly?

He knew it too.He never took her out,apart from the time when he took her out only to take her to his home.Just once they went out,as a proper outing.

dnt do ths 2 me! i luv u a lot.u promised me ul nvr lev me.didn i tld u frm befr tht i might nt b able to gv u time,coz m busy mostly.

yeah!nw tht u hv ths excuse,ul alws remain bzy evn tho u r free,if i cn remain awake 2 tok 2 u at nyt,y cnt u tok to me wen u r jus relaxin at hm,or watchin tv?& dnt u tok abt promises.doesn look good on ur mouth.

the fight continued & so was the deterioration to their already losing relationship.The end result came out was a mere apology from his side which she accepted meekly.But this time it was a harsh blow to her.She realised that she is losing interest in him & was scared that maybe she will never find love again,if they do breakup.She kept thinking about her options.

maybe I have high expectations.Oh no!i don’t have. I have seen other girls around me & the so called relationship they have wherein the boy does every bidding the girl makes.I don’t even have any sort of such crap.

Maybe our relationship is just pure lust.We are magnetic & that’s what works between us.No!i love him a lot.I get crazy if I don’t talk to him daily.

What about the future promises?marriage,kids?He brought this thing first.Will we ever reach to that point?I am a jerk.Seriously what i am talking about?Marriage,kids is a distant thing;I don’t even know whether we are meant for each other.But I can’t be in a casual relationship.I need a stable one which has a connected future.

Riya knew the answers,but is she being ignorant?Are they meant for each other or she is just forcing herself & him to continue this monotony?

remainder

everything was exquisite
delicious,tantalising
his lips on mine,i am numb
rhythmic assault,setting me on fire
i stop,what is this?
i need some air,too much hot
the emotions are so endearing

addiction of this kind is rare
i am the luckiest person
to have you
this isn’t fair
so many dreams we had woven
i blush when you spoke
so much love
i shouldn’t take
and now when i recall
i am speechless
tears trickle down my cheeks
where has the love gone?
where has he gone?
i wish i begged,another try if you can
answer was no,i held my head high
i agreed,i had my ego to protect
my loved ones suggested
move on babe
how can i,when i can’t even forget his name
months have passed, talking like an acquaintance
but when i have flashbacks
there’s no tear,
so much control on them,hiding the truth
i am living but not living my life

So many promises! 1

“Let’s meet up tomorrow again,this time not at your home!” suggested Riya.
Aryan was talking to someone on his phone.He looked at her,nodded & spoke for another 5 minutes on the phone.
“Sorry yaar! i was on the phone,what did you say?”
Riya rolled her eyes & repeated ,this time ordering “We are meeting tomorrow,not at your home.”
“Yaar! i can’t guarantee whether i can come tomorrow,i have to meet a friend who has come from abroad.He won’t be staying here for long.I will let you know by evening,but i am just telling you from before.”
Riya pouted her lips & literally pleaded him.Aryan could only offer his apologies.
Sitting cross-legged on the bed that night,thinking the same thing that bothers her whenever she goes to his flat.Its always the same.he makes me come to his flat,has his fill,does whatever he wants,but the next moment,he doesn’t do what i want.I always go in the hope that he will do what makes me happy,but i am always disappointed.Thank god!We didn’t make love,otherwise i will be feeling guilty for my entire life.Why can’t he do things that please me?Why everything is related to his flat?

With this she dozed off.Riya fell for Aryan accidentally.He is 2 years senior to her & is on the verge of passing out.There’s every possibility that their relationship might not work.Her friends warned her of him.Maybe he is just having a time pass before passing out,after all he never had a girlfriend before.she was an easy target.Who knows?But Riya on the other hand,was ready to sacrifice many things for him,she was serious about him.

as usual,he cancelled his plan for the next day.Riya was enraged.this is the millionth time,he is cancelling for a meet up.

I am sure,if i had agreed for another trip to his flat,he would have agreed to meet me.

She didn’t pick up his calls.She didn’t reply to his messages,such was her anger.But she gave in around midnight.She loved him so much that his voice,his loving talks melted her heart instantly.
She just loves him too much,beyond measure.

continued later on