Not Meant For Love

when i first saw you
i knew it was only you
instant connection
with no deliberation
we talked for a while
and i made you mine
but forgot to ask you
whether you love me too
though later you say
you love me so true
but i don’t know
my heart fails to get it
even though i want to
there’s little bit regret
did i rush into this?
cause, the way you talked endless
now its just minutes or less
did i do something wrong?
or you, somewhere else, belong?

you don’t speak much
and i got tired of asking you
though i used to
but you never answered
my ego is on the rise
do you really love me right?
is it just physical you seek?
i am not that girl,i am meek
so tell me,do you wish to go forward?
cause,already my time’s wasted
i don’t want to anymore
it would hurt me
more than you know
though i may act ignorant
but you won’t know
what lies in my heart
you never unearthed it
cause,you were too far
you weren’t interested
and i cried hard
why i even met you!
you only talked,when you were bored
where’s the respect,i deserve?
i am much more worth
you don’t realise
i was your first girl
but you aren’t treating her right
if you don’t change
she will go,to the place she is happier
she tried hard to make you come back
but you failed to realise her effort
you aren’t meant for love

I Wish

this ballad is the lament of a person who has always been crooked to others,rude,negative…he introspected & later realised his folly.
I think I have lost my being,
I can’t remember where I have been,
Didn’t know, got lost in this feeling,
how can it be?
How can it be?
Did I lose myself to this?
Am I so cold that I don’t have remorse?
Did I indulge in filth?
Am I so, like a stone?
I wish I was dead, I wish I had no guilt,
I wish my sins all get washed,
All I wish is for some good, is for some good,
I believe I have left myself,
I think I don’t deserve to live,
For what I have done I need penance,
Can I get it? It’s my last wish,
How can it be?
How can it be?
Did I lose myself to this?
Am I so cold that I don’t have remorse?
Did I indulge in filth?
Am I so, like a stone?
I wish someone shows me d light, I wish I had an escape road,
I wish I knew what’s right,
All I wish is for some good, is for some good.