So called love!

love is such a feeling that you lose track of time,you don’t care what others think of you,you start distancing yourself from your loved ones to spend as much time possible with your Only one.

My personal opinion is love is just too much precious,too beautiful,too much exquisite that if a person finds love,he thinks he is the luckiest person alive on earth.he asks himself,”how can i be so lucky?how can i be so happy?Truly god can’t gift me all the beautiful things in this world.”But then there are people who go to heaven without finding their love. 😦 They pass away without experiencing that one special emotion.

I have been lucky enough to experience Love.When i found out ,i didn’t realise that this love will be unique,that even though i want to forget about him,i just can’t.When do you say you have found true love?When you crave for each others honesty,love,understanding & inner beauty.I know i got you confused.I don’t blame you.Everyone has their own definition.He had his own definition too.I asked him & trust me,i was impressed by his definition.It was pretty close to what i had in mind.:-)

We had our ups and downs,mostly because of me.When i saw other people around me,i wanted that kind of happiness from him.That started our quarrel. :-(.I used to write a diary & its full of such incidents.I wanted to gift my diary to him as a farewell gift,i promised myself that i will write all the nice & mushy things,but in turn,scribbled all the feelings & incidents that hurt me.At times,when i read it,i thought,” I can’t gift this.There’s too much shit in this.There’s hardly anything nice.”But other times,i felt he ought to know what troubled me.I did share some of my worst moments with close friends,but nothing could compare to actually breaking down in front him.I would like to mention the name of one of my friends,Divyarth ,who in spite of everything,listened to my boring talks 😛 & always said one thing,”don’t worry,things will turn out good”.He is the one who made sure that i didn’t make a rash decision.He told me things that made me realise that i should cherish the love & sort out differences with the person.But my life was about to take a twist.

We always had time issue,actually he had.So after much consideration,we decided to go on our 3rd outing in Delhi,in all these 4 and a half month relationship.It didn’t turn out the outing i expected,but it was good.My friends taught me one thing,”Don’t expect.”,so i was happy with the flow.But it was the last day i would see him.My parents found out about my life through that diary & i knew,i didn’t have any chance any left.That day changed the course of my life.i am repeating,only my life got changed. 😦

My parents were shocked that i dared falling in love with a guy totally out of my culture.They were more disturbed by the fact,that we started planning our future as well.But my mom said one thing,”What you have written in your diary shows you are serious,but your so called boyfriend doesn’t keep you happy.Are you sure you can spend the rest of your life with him?” i said yes,but trust me,throughout that week of interrogation,my parents realised that i am daring and am ready to stand up for him.Though in doing that,my freedoms got curbed.
But i felt,that maybe my parents are right.why should i stand up for a person who can’t stand up for me,who doesn’t have the courage to even praise me in front everyone else?My life now is limited to home,can’t meet or talk to friends even.But i am sure his life is still going bad luck! his good luck! hmmn :-\

I don’t know but my love was different.If someone asks me did i love him?i will always say yes & did hope to carry this forward but alas!!! 😦 In spite of everything,i still believe in love & its beauty & would pray that everyone falls in love at least once in their life.If your love stays,you are indeed luckiest,if it doesn’t,then just think that you deserve better.
PS:for you girls,don’t sacrifice too much for your love if he can’t do for you will just get hurt later on.
guys!every girl wants to be treated like a princess,but don’t spoil her in doing that.just keep her happy to some extent 🙂 Girls like talking to you and spending time .


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